The dark clouds have not yet broken,
It’s been quite a while ,
And through the darkness I see you,
The angel in my eyes.
The darkness threatens to engulf me,
The sun refuses to shine,
And yet I walk this stony path,
Guided by your light.
Distant but never too far,
You occupy every thought of mine ,
And yet when I work at getting to you,
It seems a million miles.
Your radiant face beckons me,
I’m driven by your smile,
And yet you seem too far away,
Far away from my life.
A hundred voices in my head,
Wonder how I survive,
That's when I smile and point at you,
The angel in my eyes.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
The time of your life
'Beautiful girl! Stay with me!'- ( Beautiful girl - INXS )
He echoed the words in a low murmur as he adjusted the music volume, walking alone down the street, alone in the crowd. The night pressed around him , engulfing him in its wet embrace, moist, yet pleasant. He picked up pace, eager to return home , tired , exhausted and weak after yet another day.
An ascent up the foot bridge, a glance at the indicator and the flight of stairs down his right hand side led him onto the platform.
'Good timing'
A minute left for the train.
The world swung into motion, He stood still . It felt good.
" Hanging by a moment here with you!" - ( Hanging by a Moment - Lifehouse )
An occasional light in the darkness crawled past, the wind blew through his hair, the music played in the background. A change in pace , a familiar sound of the train changing track. The world sped by as the lyrics engulfed his mind.
'Bad idea'
The next station appeared , materializing rapidly in the dark , its lights shining brightly in the darkness , growing life size every passing moment and yet the world refused to slow down. " The fast track eh?" he mused. A faint smile appeared on his lips.
'I wish I could know if the directions that I take and all the choices that I make, won't end up all for nothing' ( Crawling in the dark - Hoobstank )
A brilliant flash rapidly engulfed by the darkness ,illuminated platform tiles weaving a rapid pattern and then a rumble over a bridge. He had made a mistake and it had not bothered him the least.
" Is this what i have become? "
And I’ve got nothing to say ,I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face - ( Somewhere i belong - Linkin park )
The station loomed up into the distance, and then sped past. his smile matured into a smug grin. " Reality check? Have i missed out on my actual destination trying to get there quickly? Is this what bothers me? Is this why i feel low without any apparent reason? Or am i attaching too much importance to something that i don't need to? "
Seconds lengthen into light years when thoughts go reflective. The mind goes ballistic and all reason fails. Quicksand - The more you struggle , the more it engulfs you.
He looks up as the next station swings past him. " Are things out of my control here? Can't i stop? Was my fate sealed the second i strayed off track? Did i calculate wrong attempting to reach my destination early? Is this a one way street? I know where i stop next. I'v seen it coming the second i realised i was on this track. But does that change a thing? My destination has been overshot. My plans have come crashing down around me.
Is this the result of willful negligence? Will i ever know what prompted me forget to look before i leap? The time that has rushed bye will never come back to me now. Will i be able to undo what i have done?
Mental battles are best left unexplored. They hurt. He could feel a tight fist clench his heart questioning many of his dubious decisions. When the blow falls , it falls hard. In a state of daze , loosing against himself he looks up. The train is gone. He is on the open street. He wonders why he did not catch a train back. He is down , in the very depths of surrender.
A falling star , Least i fall alone ( It ends tonight - The all American rejects )
A disturbed mind is no armor , a weakened confidence no helm , a broken will no weapon and shame is certainly no livery when you face yourself and your conscience in an open combat. You loose. Or you loose. Or you win and yet.... it is never complete. And yet if you do not face your rival , the threat remains. The threat of extinction. The fear of loosing what ever you stand for.
Even Against yourself.
I walk this empty street, On the Boulevard of broken dreams - ( Boulevard of broken dreams - Greenday )
A walk down the road. Déjà vu. Crossroads. Decisions. He looks up . Why? why was he walking in the direction opposite to that of his house? He had been here before, how ever at a different time , in a different situation , a different person. But times had changed. It was no longer the same. The corner had never seemed so dark. In fact the corner seemed to be blindingly bright. She was there.
I don't believe you, you're not the truth! ( Pretty Woman -Roy Orbison )
And yet there he was... a believer. A false moment , a random meeting , nothing that made sense. Those eyes ,the ones he would never forget , the half smile , the set hair. The crazy fun! The late night talks , his feelings for her. How she had rocked his world and how his world revolved around her anyway. The millions of jokes he cracked everyday, just to annoy her so that he could make it up to her later! The magic. How he had adored her! Missed her when he was sad , and pined for her when he was happy. How they had laughed together.... and not let each other cry ever!
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight - ( Iris - Goo Goo dolls )
The subtle flirting sometimes , or the not so subtle hitting on more or less every other second! Footsie under the library table and the first kiss ever! The first kiss , that made everything else so irrelevant at that moment. Her innocence, her care!
The sea face was over in a flash. The memories were livid. He could feel her near him.... her aura surrounding him..... he closed his eyes.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you. - ( Your Beautiful - James Blunt )
And it had got over. He din't know why . It just dint seem to matter how hard he had tried. Everything had broken like a promise , shattered like a dream , stuck like a record... playing the same old song. Of how it had just got over, and nothing he said had managed to change it. He had immersed himself in his work , in his family and his friends but the feeling just had gone...probably never to come back.
The rain started pouring down the spray wetting his face. With a start he looked around , the showrooms flashed bye as he stared out into the night.
The bus rolled to a halt and he got off. His feet raw from all the walking he had done. Every step seemed to hurt , each more than the last.
It's just a moment, This time will pass - ( Stuck in a moment - u2 )
'Maybe it was meant to be , maybe we were never meant to be , maybe I'll have a fresh start. Maybe I'll get another chance.' a string of maybe's ran through his head. As he approached the doorway he stopped. He looked up . Smiled. The lyrics of the song ran though his head.
Everything was all right in this world. Well. Almost.
He echoed the words in a low murmur as he adjusted the music volume, walking alone down the street, alone in the crowd. The night pressed around him , engulfing him in its wet embrace, moist, yet pleasant. He picked up pace, eager to return home , tired , exhausted and weak after yet another day.
An ascent up the foot bridge, a glance at the indicator and the flight of stairs down his right hand side led him onto the platform.
'Good timing'
A minute left for the train.
The world swung into motion, He stood still . It felt good.
" Hanging by a moment here with you!" - ( Hanging by a Moment - Lifehouse )
An occasional light in the darkness crawled past, the wind blew through his hair, the music played in the background. A change in pace , a familiar sound of the train changing track. The world sped by as the lyrics engulfed his mind.
'Bad idea'
The next station appeared , materializing rapidly in the dark , its lights shining brightly in the darkness , growing life size every passing moment and yet the world refused to slow down. " The fast track eh?" he mused. A faint smile appeared on his lips.
'I wish I could know if the directions that I take and all the choices that I make, won't end up all for nothing' ( Crawling in the dark - Hoobstank )
A brilliant flash rapidly engulfed by the darkness ,illuminated platform tiles weaving a rapid pattern and then a rumble over a bridge. He had made a mistake and it had not bothered him the least.
" Is this what i have become? "
And I’ve got nothing to say ,I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face - ( Somewhere i belong - Linkin park )
The station loomed up into the distance, and then sped past. his smile matured into a smug grin. " Reality check? Have i missed out on my actual destination trying to get there quickly? Is this what bothers me? Is this why i feel low without any apparent reason? Or am i attaching too much importance to something that i don't need to? "
Far away, This ship is taking me far awayFar away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die - ( Starlight - Muse )
Of the people who care if I live or die - ( Starlight - Muse )
Seconds lengthen into light years when thoughts go reflective. The mind goes ballistic and all reason fails. Quicksand - The more you struggle , the more it engulfs you.
He looks up as the next station swings past him. " Are things out of my control here? Can't i stop? Was my fate sealed the second i strayed off track? Did i calculate wrong attempting to reach my destination early? Is this a one way street? I know where i stop next. I'v seen it coming the second i realised i was on this track. But does that change a thing? My destination has been overshot. My plans have come crashing down around me.
Is this the result of willful negligence? Will i ever know what prompted me forget to look before i leap? The time that has rushed bye will never come back to me now. Will i be able to undo what i have done?
I don't want to be the one, Who battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize
That I'm the one confused - ( Breaking the habit - Linkin Park )
Cuz inside I realize
That I'm the one confused - ( Breaking the habit - Linkin Park )
Mental battles are best left unexplored. They hurt. He could feel a tight fist clench his heart questioning many of his dubious decisions. When the blow falls , it falls hard. In a state of daze , loosing against himself he looks up. The train is gone. He is on the open street. He wonders why he did not catch a train back. He is down , in the very depths of surrender.
A falling star , Least i fall alone ( It ends tonight - The all American rejects )
A disturbed mind is no armor , a weakened confidence no helm , a broken will no weapon and shame is certainly no livery when you face yourself and your conscience in an open combat. You loose. Or you loose. Or you win and yet.... it is never complete. And yet if you do not face your rival , the threat remains. The threat of extinction. The fear of loosing what ever you stand for.
Even Against yourself.
I walk this empty street, On the Boulevard of broken dreams - ( Boulevard of broken dreams - Greenday )
A walk down the road. Déjà vu. Crossroads. Decisions. He looks up . Why? why was he walking in the direction opposite to that of his house? He had been here before, how ever at a different time , in a different situation , a different person. But times had changed. It was no longer the same. The corner had never seemed so dark. In fact the corner seemed to be blindingly bright. She was there.
I don't believe you, you're not the truth! ( Pretty Woman -Roy Orbison )
And yet there he was... a believer. A false moment , a random meeting , nothing that made sense. Those eyes ,the ones he would never forget , the half smile , the set hair. The crazy fun! The late night talks , his feelings for her. How she had rocked his world and how his world revolved around her anyway. The millions of jokes he cracked everyday, just to annoy her so that he could make it up to her later! The magic. How he had adored her! Missed her when he was sad , and pined for her when he was happy. How they had laughed together.... and not let each other cry ever!
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight - ( Iris - Goo Goo dolls )
The subtle flirting sometimes , or the not so subtle hitting on more or less every other second! Footsie under the library table and the first kiss ever! The first kiss , that made everything else so irrelevant at that moment. Her innocence, her care!
The sea face was over in a flash. The memories were livid. He could feel her near him.... her aura surrounding him..... he closed his eyes.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you. - ( Your Beautiful - James Blunt )
And it had got over. He din't know why . It just dint seem to matter how hard he had tried. Everything had broken like a promise , shattered like a dream , stuck like a record... playing the same old song. Of how it had just got over, and nothing he said had managed to change it. He had immersed himself in his work , in his family and his friends but the feeling just had gone...probably never to come back.
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel - ( Lips of an Angel - Hinder )
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel - ( Lips of an Angel - Hinder )
The rain started pouring down the spray wetting his face. With a start he looked around , the showrooms flashed bye as he stared out into the night.
The bus rolled to a halt and he got off. His feet raw from all the walking he had done. Every step seemed to hurt , each more than the last.
It's just a moment, This time will pass - ( Stuck in a moment - u2 )
'Maybe it was meant to be , maybe we were never meant to be , maybe I'll have a fresh start. Maybe I'll get another chance.' a string of maybe's ran through his head. As he approached the doorway he stopped. He looked up . Smiled. The lyrics of the song ran though his head.
Everything was all right in this world. Well. Almost.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Life just isn't
Life , It just isn't.
A hundred thoughts go around in my head wondering about life.
I've been remembering this line " Life just isn't " quite a bit. And it started making me think a lot. I usually hate thinking , because its often caused unwanted results , agony and complicated decisions. But this time i guess it was just meant to be.
A lot of thought went into putting this down and i believe it has clarified a lot of things for me.
Life isn't about worrying. It has never helped anyone and probably never will.
Life isn't about being scared , its about facing your worst fears.
Life Isn't about your worst fears , its about conquering them.
Life isn't about 'conquests over ', its about 'reconciliation with'.
Life isn't about reconciliation , its about utilizing your chances.
Life isn't about the chances you got , but the opportunities you took.
Life isn't about opportunities that were lost , but the appreciation of what you have.
Life isn't about being content with what you have , its about ambition.
Life isn't about pure ambition, its about keeping your feet on the ground.
Life isn't about staying on the ground, but taking flight.
Life isn't about flying high, its about setting your sights higher.
Life isn't JUST about setting your sights higher but also your essence intact.
The essence of life is not about making compromises , its about living your life on your terms.
Living on your life on your terms does not include forgetting other around you.
Remeber your parents , they gave you your life.
Remember that things change , people change , change is the only constant.
But all that can change if you change the way you look at it.
Which brings us back to you.
You are important. You are powerful. You are empowered. You do not need to change. You need to evolve. You always have a choice. You can be better than anyone you want. You do not need to better anyone. You can beat the benchmark. Infact you can be the benchmark. Hey , YOU ARE THE BENCHMARK. Recognize that in you and feel strong and see how beautiful life is.
That is life.
Feel the magic. Every time you make a person smile you create magic. You are a magician.
Are you smiling now?
A hundred thoughts go around in my head wondering about life.
I've been remembering this line " Life just isn't " quite a bit. And it started making me think a lot. I usually hate thinking , because its often caused unwanted results , agony and complicated decisions. But this time i guess it was just meant to be.
A lot of thought went into putting this down and i believe it has clarified a lot of things for me.
Life isn't about worrying. It has never helped anyone and probably never will.
Life isn't about being scared , its about facing your worst fears.
Life Isn't about your worst fears , its about conquering them.
Life isn't about 'conquests over ', its about 'reconciliation with'.
Life isn't about reconciliation , its about utilizing your chances.
Life isn't about the chances you got , but the opportunities you took.
Life isn't about opportunities that were lost , but the appreciation of what you have.
Life isn't about being content with what you have , its about ambition.
Life isn't about pure ambition, its about keeping your feet on the ground.
Life isn't about staying on the ground, but taking flight.
Life isn't about flying high, its about setting your sights higher.
Life isn't JUST about setting your sights higher but also your essence intact.
The essence of life is not about making compromises , its about living your life on your terms.
Living on your life on your terms does not include forgetting other around you.
Remeber your parents , they gave you your life.
Remember that things change , people change , change is the only constant.
But all that can change if you change the way you look at it.
Which brings us back to you.
You are important. You are powerful. You are empowered. You do not need to change. You need to evolve. You always have a choice. You can be better than anyone you want. You do not need to better anyone. You can beat the benchmark. Infact you can be the benchmark. Hey , YOU ARE THE BENCHMARK. Recognize that in you and feel strong and see how beautiful life is.
That is life.
Feel the magic. Every time you make a person smile you create magic. You are a magician.
Are you smiling now?
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